The Gazeebo

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The Gazeebo: Stuck with Raw Emotion

Hey ya’ll!

Haven’t updated in a while and in order to attempt to change that for the future, I’m going to add more posts like this one where I’m just monologuing, with no poems.

Anyway, lately I’ve been just stuck with no creative ideas like I usually have for my poems. Instead, I’ve been writing pieces that are just pure, raw emotion without any true poetic qualities. So, basically I’m hoping that with the changing of the seasons, ideas will start flowing again. Much the same way my rose bush is beginning to grow again 🙂

The piece I’ve been focusing the most of my time on isn’t even something I’d post on here if it did have some true poetic qualities (it would be considered a rant poem by the way); the subject is much too personal and destructive if the person that I’m writing about saw it. So, instead I’m going to show it to a few select people and allow my family to do the same.

Otherwise, life is going pretty good. I’ve been taking an acting class and my confidence has risen substantially, though I’m noticing myself fall into the same rut as we’ve been doing improv. I’m well aware that it’s due to the new things we’re doing and me feeling nervous trying to figure it out while in a scene in front of people, and I know I’ll eventually get used to it in some way – it’s just gonna take me some time. Otherwise, in my accounting class, I’ve kind of conquered the basic premises of what we’re doing and am catching on extremely quick, and in my piano class I’m just learning more and more every week so I’m happy 🙂

Which in relation to being happy, I’ve been on the upswing of the depression roller coaster and I’m hoping I stay here 🙂 It’s been longer for me being happier than usual, but I ain’t complaining; just hoping that I don’t relapse and start going down again – it’s no fun!

As far as other life stuff goes, work is going alright though I genuinely wish I was getting paid more due to financial stuff for the sort of near future – I’ll expand on that at a later date as it nears.

Anyways, I think that’s all about me, but here are a few words of wisdom:

For you writers out there, find something to inspire you and write about it – if it doesn’t come out that great the first time, then at least you have a draft to work on and creative juices flowing to hopefully write more 🙂 For the rest of you, still find something that inspires you and aim for it as you go through your every day – just knowing that there’s that something waiting for you will allow you to get through the day and accomplish everything you set out to 🙂

That is all and have a good one!

J.McD.L

March 22, 2013 Posted by | Your Lungren Originals | , , , , | Leave a comment

   

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